I have know idea where this all will take us – the promise of a safe, storm free place seems like a never experienced illusion. And despite all the fearful thoughts here we are – learning to walk in a foreign habitat.
A habitat that seemed very similar to the one we were living in.
illusion. vanishing illusions. uncensured human existence right in our face.
That is what you get – after spending the first year of leaving everything behind and let us start a new chapter kind of decision.
a small group of people seemingly knowing each other – move to the other side of the world. Knowing noone. Selling everything.
Each of them have their talent. And no matter how much they fight for the solo…they have each other.
Spending one life in one place – feels safe. Feeling anxious at that well known place feels a well known everyday fight too.
I sometimes still wonder what made me do all this:
attachement issues
delusion
advanture
fear for settling
love
trust
I guess all of those – and a lot more I do not even know yet.
There are still days when I feel like I’m in a surreal dream, moving 9,000 kilometers — all the way to the other side of the world. Watching myself disappear from the place where I was born and raised. Experiencing a rebirth in this new place.
Shedding.
It is beautiful and tough. Unbelievable chellanging, heartbreaking yet grateful.
I guess this is not much of an answer of the question on the top. Let us continue from here.
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